Sunday, Mar. 20, 2005 - 9:57 p.m.
I exchanged text messages with D last night. I told him that my pussy thought my phone was disconnected because it's been too long between 'visits'. That man
constantly surprises me.
We first met about two years ago - I had just started Uni, given up fulltime work, so I placed an ad with my skills hoping for some casual work. He replied to the ad, we met up, got on really well and have been friends and fuck buddies ever since.
The morning I got the phone call about Wayne's suicide I was actually meeting D - he turned up about five minutes after the phone call - so he was the first person to find out after my call to my parents.
He is quietly spoken, neatly yet casually dressed, not pretentious at all. He has a tone of arrogance about him, but not to the point of annoying. He doesn't talk about how great he is or how rich or successful he is - that information just kinda exudes out of him in general conversation. When I first met him, I knew he managed a business in Brisbane but I guess I just assumed it was small to medium sized with average turnover and always struggling to make the profit margin big enough to continue trading for another 12 months. It was when I realised he drove at least three different cars and had a mobile phone worth over $2,000 that I started to realise the 'business' was probably something a little more.
Whether intentional or not, snippets of information are given - he is personal friends with the Mayor of Brisbane, he has a 64ft yacht, he owns the company, he has international clients. He was around here one afternoon and had to fly to Sydney for business. I asked him when his flight was and he said "I haven't booked - I just turn up at the airport and jump on the next commuter plane out." That must cost a lot more than booking three weeks in advance? All his sales staff have company cars and company mobiles - that's why I've seen him in three different cars - all new models.
So I was texting him last night and he is in China. CHINA?! And it wasn't a big deal for him ... "in China, back next week, then back to China on Friday" like it's an everyday occurence. I am usually unimpressed by financial strength. My Mother is very materialistic and judges a person's worth on their asset-gathering, earning capacity and social status. I have rejected that view ever since meeting Wayne and now all I ask is that a man in my life can support himself so that I don't have to work three jobs to support him like I did for Wayne and his son Travis. But I can't help but be amazed and surprised and I guess impressed at D's wealth. Looking at him physically, it's obvious that he wears good quality clothes and takes care of himself (gym, grooming etc) but his wealth is not obvious.
I find this whole thing really flattering - with his money and good looks, he could have almost any woman in the world for sex and friendship. He could pay for the most expensive escort in Brisbane or he could 'woo' any one of thousands of pretentious, money hungry princesses out there, but he chooses to have me as his friend and FB! Not only that, but even when he is in my very average, very humble home I feel nothing but complete respect from him. He never makes comments about my life that would make me feel as though I was inferior to him although I'm sure that would be easy to do. I like the fact that he doesn't believe he is better than me just because he has money. Financially we are world's apart but in intelligence, life experience, interesting conversation and sexual compatibility we are very similar - and I like that.
I told him by text that I had a rough week and he said I could share it with him if I wanted. He's in China, on business, with probably heaps of meetings and business to attend to, and he offers his time and ear to me to listen to my problems. That's cool.
Although my daydreams take me to places where I have something more with him I know the probability of that happening is similar to world peace but that's okay. If this is as much as I have with him I'm okay with that. I do, however, feel as though I'm ready for a relationship. This is the first time I've truly felt this - everything else was false attempt because I thought I met someone worthy. I don't think I've met the person yet but if an opportunity for something more was presented to me (by D or someone else worthwhile) I think I would be ready to take a leap of faith.
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