Monday, May. 03, 2004 - 12:26 a.m.
About a week ago I started chatting to a Brisbane guy (T) on Yahoo Messenger. He messaged me in a chat room and we talked every couple of days. Young (23yo) and intelligent, I enjoyed his company. Paulette has finally contacted me again and she asked David for a sleepover last night (Saturday). I mentioned it to T in chat on Friday and we decided that if we felt like it we might catch up on Saturday night.
He already had movie plans with friends. I nearly chickened out but he convinced me otherwise and so T arrived here around midnight. We chatted for about three hours which was cool. I did my usual trick of interrupting, repeating myself and talking too much but he didn't run out the door so he's obviously very tolerant. It could have been an uncomfortable situation - I have never met an onliner at my house before plus the time of night could have made it a little weird. It was not strained at all though which was awesome - he was exactly as he was online (unpretentious, interesting, intelligent, funny) and I had a great night. Within a couple of hours of talking he had the audacity to call ME a control freak!! Imagine that!!
So anyway around 3am we somehow ended up in the bedroom. It may have had something to do with the way i was sitting on the couch in my short skirt ;)
Around 6am I finally fell asleep and woke up around 9am after snoring for three hours! I apologised profusely, blaming it on him because he made me sleep so soundly. We played a little more and then he fell fast asleep, waking after lunch while I did a little Uni work.
I can honestly say it was the most successful meeting of an onliner I've ever had. He was exactly as he was online which is a refreshing change; plus we had only been chatting for about a week so there was only a short window for built up expectations. I am completely over the idea of spending months online chatting to someone - building a perfect vision of them because they have the opportunity (not necessarily consciously) of formulating a positive response to all my questions or statements.
I believe that one of the biggest reasons why meeting people online doesn't work (regardless of purpose e.g. relationship, purely sexual, friendship) is because we can both control the time, environment and timing of our interaction. We only ever interact with that person when we're comfortably seated, the housework is done, we have our drink/smokes/TV/music all organised and there are seldom other demands on us like phone calls or children. We also then have time to formulate our responses - censor them, make them funny, add an emoticon. This is so different from the real world. I know that if a friend phones me or turns up for a coffee, my ability to respond positively to them is conditional on a number of factors - what I am doing, what needs to be done, who is around, the time of day, my stress levels - even whether or not I've had a shower and brushed my teeth!
It was obvious to me that T had been completely honest and straightforward in all our online interactions and I hope that he realised the same about me. It seems likely that we will continue to meet up occasionally for safe, consensual fun as we have similar visions and a commitment to honesty.
t.